Top quote. Thanks so much. Problem is he already hit rock bottom -he was there when I met him, and I truly believed he'd clawed his way up into the light.....but he can't let go of his old buddies and places he used to hang out...I know what I have to do..but it hurts...and can't bear to see him tumble all that way back, it makes what we have gone more…
I know I have brought all this on myself -jumping into an inevitably bad sitaution so soon after my last break up...it took the pain away then..but it's double now. I don't hate him-I wish I did.. more…
When someone is throwing themselves into the ocean the last thing you need to do is to hold their hand...you have to cut him off and let him jump....it is only when he hits rock bottom that he can then help himself..all you will do by supporting him is delay the inevitable and you will suffer the most..
I know the pain that you describe, when you hate and love the same person so much that you alternate between angry and needy. They are the cause of your pain but somehow you feel that they can also be the cure too.
I have no answers, what you are experiencing is so awful and it hurts so much but somehow we survive. I did.
Ta ..great to see you ruminating to the fullest once more ...just realised how many typos there are in mine...and I'm supposed to be a post grad student..just shows you how standards are slipping...x more…
wow- I read that and it took me on a journey and it took me out again. Thank you. Please keep writing things like that, it makes my belief in humanity stronger. more…
Trying to keep my boundaries firm ...but not always doing so well.....Roma is my consolation and joy , she makes my solitude precious and to be truthful I need her more the the Poacher, who is still living in my space...and to be honest taking more and more of it...but without real commitment....but very sweetly....Y'see the more…
Dear Betty,
great to see you writing again and I very much enjoyed this poem. I take it it's about Roma? Is he still with you? How has life changed since you last wrote?
Thanks for all the thoughtful comments on my blog
tim x more…
Dear Betty,
just a short posting to say welcome back. I was getting a bit concerned about you considering the circumstances in which you last posted so am relieved to hear your latest message. You sound strong and a figher but sometimes fighting is just so exhausting.
All the best to you,
Tim more…
I can understand that. Being alone is so hard, particularly when you are not used to it. I am glad that you still can see the dog, it's amazing how much simple comfort can be had from the company of pets. I know that my two aged cats have brought me a lot of pleasure over the years and they seem to know at least at some level how sad that I have be more…
Oh no! - really?? Actually I have negotiated part shares in our dog, and having her with me at night is a great comfort. I wish I wasn't so crap at being alone or in letting go. Life gets busier by the day and I just have to fill my mind with other things...my heart is less easy...xx more…
I am hoping that you are managing to cope with the pain that you are feeling.In terms of a good nights sleep I can't offer much consolation. My marriage broke up over two years ago and I still wake up every night somewhere between two and four more…
I am bolstered this time, I don't have to leave my home or anything..I have family & friends around, I'm sad but feeling safe and supported, so I can get through this . Thankyou so much for your kind words, they make such a difference. more…
When we grieve it is hard not to wish that we could somehow be stoic and strong but we cannot, the pain is too intense and we cannot help but show it and that is nothing to be ashamed of more…
Thankyou so much for your amazing honesty, I too have alcohol running through the veins of my family and it has made for interesting times..hence I don't drink much.....I can't give up on him totally but at the same time I've been here before and unless he can try and help himself no one else can do jack. Some people are just made that way..Self me more…
Thanks, I just have to let people in..and I have so far ...and it is much easier....and humbling...ooh it's better than being a misanthrope all the time..xx more…
And wise and kind which is always useful. I feel better for being in control (for now ) of my emotions and for retaining dignity.
I have people who care abut me, a home and work which has the potential for being very fulfilling, and creative freedom etc etc I am incredibly lucky.
girl i am so impressed with how you are dealing with this you are doing all the right things and the flight and ultimatum is spot on...I know the realisation of moving on is sad but comes a point where you have to look out for your own life ...life is shit ..its just the level of shit that changes..good luck..he will be panicking now ..let him know more…
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Top quote. Thanks so much. Problem is he already hit rock bottom -he was there when I met him, and I truly believed he'd clawed his way up into the light.....but he can't let go of his old buddies and places he used to hang out...I know what I have to do..but it hurts...and can't bear to see him tumble all that way back, it makes what we have gone more…
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I know I have brought all this on myself -jumping into an inevitably bad sitaution so soon after my last break up...it took the pain away then..but it's double now. I don't hate him-I wish I did.. more…
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When someone is throwing themselves into the ocean the last thing you need to do is to hold their hand...you have to cut him off and let him jump....it is only when he hits rock bottom that he can then help himself..all you will do by supporting him is delay the inevitable and you will suffer the most..
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I know the pain that you describe, when you hate and love the same person so much that you alternate between angry and needy. They are the cause of your pain but somehow you feel that they can also be the cure too.
I have no answers, what you are experiencing is so awful and it hurts so much but somehow we survive. I did.
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Trying to keep my boundaries firm ...but not always doing so well.....Roma is my consolation and joy , she makes my solitude precious and to be truthful I need her more the the Poacher, who is still living in my space...and to be honest taking more and more of it...but without real commitment....but very sweetly....Y'see the more…
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Dear Betty,
great to see you writing again and I very much enjoyed this poem. I take it it's about Roma? Is he still with you? How has life changed since you last wrote?
Thanks for all the thoughtful comments on my blog
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Dear Betty,
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I can understand that. Being alone is so hard, particularly when you are not used to it. I am glad that you still can see the dog, it's amazing how much simple comfort can be had from the company of pets. I know that my two aged cats have brought me a lot of pleasure over the years and they seem to know at least at some level how sad that I have be more…
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Thankyou so much for your amazing honesty, I too have alcohol running through the veins of my family and it has made for interesting times..hence I don't drink much.....I can't give up on him totally but at the same time I've been here before and unless he can try and help himself no one else can do jack. Some people are just made that way..Self me more…
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And wise and kind which is always useful. I feel better for being in control (for now ) of my emotions and for retaining dignity.
I have people who care abut me, a home and work which has the potential for being very fulfilling, and creative freedom etc etc I am incredibly lucky.
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girl i am so impressed with how you are dealing with this you are doing all the right things and the flight and ultimatum is spot on...I know the realisation of moving on is sad but comes a point where you have to look out for your own life ...life is shit ..its just the level of shit that changes..good luck..he will be panicking now ..let him know more…
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