Wow the longest break from blogging since I started...have missed it ...but down in Suffolk visiting my oldest friend...not the oldest as in age , but in length of time of knowing.....amazing cottage in the middle of nowhere...so quiet. Catching up on all our doings and also getting a crash course on veg growin. Been planting seeds and picking last of the year's parsnips....Had time to think which has been invaluable. I musn't get distracted by other people's perceptions of me or other people's needs. I have my handful of good friends who never judge, and they are all I need.
Have felt a little lonesome again, and sad for all I lost, but that is probably healthy as it is still only a short time since the split, it would be foolish to think I wouldn't still feel pangs. It's good not being distracted by the poacher's needs...and brilliant news on that front..which may change the direction of this blog again. After watching him chug a minimum of three bottles of wine a day..He kicked off at the Drugs and Alcohol Service for keeping him and his liver waiting so long....and hurrah ! They got him a place from this week ! He's so happy. I drop him off Tuesday a.m. So glad to say I'll have my space back for a while and he can sort some of his shit out. Other people are helping too, so I don't feel like he is my responsibility. He wants me to film whatever they'll let me..which I think will be painful but a brilliant thing to do....for him. I don't think they'll let me in for the first 5 days though whilst he does the serious physical withdrawal, and he'll be Mr Librium anyhow.
I have psychotherapy sessions set up with my friend for him when he gets out, and I'm holding all his benefits ..so I think a couple of days after he gets out we'll go off for a week or two away from everything that he associates with drinking. It has been hard talking to him on the phone over the last few days...his so called friends are trying to get him to go on a three day pre-rehab bender....he's done incredibly well to resist..which is why I think he'll make it. We 'll see.